I thought I would feel very self-conscious

I thought I would feel very self-conscious and be attempting to hide my perceived body flaws because I was afraid of judgment by Kristen.

I don’t know why but that was my biggest fear. It’s why I canceled 3 times before actually going through with it. Instead, she offered a safe place and words of encouragement. I got over my fear rather quickly and had the best time!

I recently had emergency triple bypass surgery that really helped put my life into perspective. As the saying goes, life is short. Take risks. Do things you’ve always wanted to do. Embrace who you are. Having struggled with my weight my entire life it’s been difficult to really see in the mirror what my husband sees.

Do I believe him when he tells me I’m sexy and beautiful? Yes but I still struggle to see it for myself. My photos brought this full circle for me. I am hot. I am sexy. I am beautiful. And no one can take that from me. It’s an incredibly empowering feeling. I’m damn proud of these photos – it’s one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.

I still go back and look at them and I cannot believe it’s me. I look sexy, I can finally see what my husband sees and it is so liberating and empowering. I find that since my shoot, my overall confidence has increased. I feel differently when I walk out the door.