I have always been tall and skinny. I have always battled with my weight but not in the way most people think of battling weight. I fight to gain weight, and have for most of my life. I go to the gym but it is to add lean muscle mass not to lose anything.
I feel like in today’s world that just isn’t talked about. When you hear about people struggling with weight it is losing weight and I should be happy that I have a fast metabolism and can “eat whatever I want” the truth is I have to be more conscious of what I eat, when I eat, how much I eat and the list goes one. At any given time I am one illness from being put in the hospital because 109 pounds on a 5’9″ medium body frame is dangerously unhealthy. See ladies I struggled for a long time to love my body. I have a c cup boobs and a very little butt.
Almost all my friends are shorter and have more than me in one of those areas. Throw in the fact that I was a Tom boy and needless to say I wasn’t exactly confident in myself. After I had my daughter I was in a relationship with someone who told me to take pride in my body and I just wasn’t as attractive as before I had her. I went into a tailspin and almost ended up in the hospital for an eating disorder.
Nine years later I still can’t really brag on my selection in men as it still isn’t the greatest but what I can say is I have grown as a person and become so much more confident in myself. My hair isn’t always perfect and I still hate wearing makeup most days (thank the lord for Meghan) but I am beautiful. I lost my fiance about a year and a half ago now and it took me getting through that to see how truly amazing I am as a person. I still have bad days and still don’t feel pretty at times but when push comes to shove I know I am an amazing person.
I was online when something for Kristen’s photography came up. So my session was a way for me to celebrate my journey and the huge steps I’ve made to find my own self worth. It hasn’t been an easy journey but when I look at the pictures she took I know it was worth it. She has encouraged me through this whole process and makes it so easy for anyone she works with.
She is real and relatable. I was so nervous that my pictures wouldn’t look how I wanted or that I wasn’t going to like them. Maybe I would look too thin in this pose or I couldn’t do that pose… let me tell ya ladies if you can follow instructions you will have pictures that you love. She finds a way to show off your body with how she poses you and you look stunning. I will most certainly be booking another session with Kristen. No matter how you feel you look I promise you are beautiful. Kristen knows how to show that off in pictures. Trust her and believe in yourself. I know I didn’t but now I have a beautiful album to remind me any time I may forget.
Every woman should do this at least once in her life.
